Friday, March 28, 2008
Emo ako ngaun.
"I watch the times we had together burn away.
I watch my memories of him burn away.
I am through with them.
Fucking through.
It is time to say goodbye"
- A Million Little Pieces
Just like what people do during summer, i also want to swim, hang around and party. Not because i wanna have fun, but because i need to. Damn! I'm so lonely. I want to get him out of my mind permanently!
i thought it would be easier for me to move on or bring it back again by staying even with him..but no..im wrong.
I dont have that strong heart when it comes to him.
I might say things that are mean and hard
but when it comes to him i know i would just only swallow it.
He's my weakness and i know i have to overcome it. i have to.
Maybe now...i really have to take it seriously.
If said it, i should really mean it. Xa lng naman un d ba? AMF.
Now i realized why he deserves to be dumped and slapped!
Last night, I already decided to say these things to him.
I told him that I don't want him anymore.
I dont want us to be friends.
I don't wanna talk to him anymore.
and he shud be might as well cut off everything between us.
I was soooo brave to tell him that
..He's the only guy i really can't get enough of.
I don't know how should i feel but
i know my feelings are so mixed.
I feel numb, hurt and once more i am bleeding.
While im feeling all of these feelings, he is kinda acting
really strange.
Now, i really don't feel the need to keep him. IM SO HURT!
He's no longer the guy i used to know.
Lalu na when i look back at those days na naphiya ako dhil s knya..
i felt like a trash that day...though i know he's just joking..but
I think it's not appropriate to make a joke in frotn of other whom i don't even know
personally.
However, i'm so glad i did it. I'd finally had the guts to end up everything
with him. rawr! i don't care if they see me bitter in my part..But the hell!
He turned up my life into hell! =c
Sna d ko n lng xa mnhal.. :c
It's also my fault because i chose to love him.
i broke my heart by loving him.
awww.*SIGH*
i always keep myself on the track.
he's the reason why i still keep going on..
i've got so much love to give but too bad..im just one of those hopelessly romantic.
empty..frustrated..and broken
RAWR!STUPID! d n ko bblik dun.
promise.
now that i've got the guts to end everything between us.
-I'LL FIND LOVE AGAIN-
my BiTTER-SWEET
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